No. 1 LOVE LETTER

[This is my love letter to the universe.]

You pour me out on the kitchen floor, in the dimly lit street where I used to dance.  In wind and rain and snow, in icicles that glow, light catching through the fog in hopes of spring. You kiss me beneath the stars and wipe tears from my face, push to the side rain soaked hair and still the love in your eyes surprises me.

I can be loved? I can be loved.

My heart bleeds into you like rain in the summer heat. I pour into you like fall leaves crunching beneath heels, I am the heart you forgot that loved you and I hold you in my arms but you don't notice the warmth, you let go and it's too soon to feel the sparks that could fly if only. If only. If only I could pour out into you like stars trembling in the night sky, like the remedy to cure all ills I would save you. I would heal your wounds. I would clot the blood with my palms and push down. I would hold your heart in my palms just to keep it beating forever and I would never let you go. I would heal you and I would give my life for yours without question, without hesitation and I would pour it all out for you. I would hold you and you would let me go too soon to feel the warmth.

So, hold the door open for me before you go I don't know if I can deal with the loss.

How do you get to go? You can't just check out early and leave me here. You're the one who watched the clouds float by on summer days and held my hand as we walked. It's too soon for you to go. Don't go. I can't see you go. I don't want to feel numb to this. I want to feel it all. The pain of losing you if you go. If you decide to leave, when it's your time to go. I love you. I know it hurts I know there's pain.

 It amazes me how beautiful you are, how strong and amazing and sure you are. How comforted and held you seem to be, like, you know everything is going to be okay.

I love that about you. And I will continue to love that about you until the end.

-Fight for those you love

Love,

Liv